4 Guys
There are four guys recently I’d like to make some comments on, oz, G, B, and C. oz is at my age more or less, the other three are old or middle aged men.
G is my new flatmate, an incredible Italian guy. Even though I just moved in only three days ago, I am really happy and relaxed with him. Still it’s hard for me to believe how lucky I am now. Or it’s too early to lead to this conclusion, lucky or unlucky. Anyway, I am happy, at least for now.
There’s something else which is also making me happy. Lol, probably, oz. I know that exactly, it’s very difficult for me to get attracted by someone. Whether it’s because I always have higher expectation on sb., or I myself is just a dumb, hard to tell. Whatever, I have to admit that I kinda like him, probably, or more than like. I couldn’t help wonderring, was I disappointed last night he only kissed on my cheek when he said good night right in front of my ear?
B is someone close to me. He said he loves me like a daughter, however, when he hugs me, I don’t feel comfortable, not at all!! Maybe I am still not used to this culture. Strange, is it? I told B about oz, after B got the idea that oz is Aussie, B got mad right in my face. His philosophy is Asian belongs to Asian, with which I also agree though, (even more precisely, my understanding is Chinese belongs to Chinese), and he almost shouted at me that why Aussie wants an Asian girl. During that, he said, “Herain, do u want to get hurt again?” I was shocked by that sentence. I did get hurt by that sentence though.
What i am doing now? I like to catch oz’s eyes when he smiles to me. I like his tone when he talks to me. I like his low-key, sophisticated n mature. I even liked he petted on my back when it was chilly yesterday. My friends should probably notice that I usually keep some distance with them, even with female friends. I looked backwards to those three times we went out alone so far, I thought he kinda likes me too, that’s why he kept asking me going out for the last three weeks. But right now, it seems that I am trying to persuade myself to believe that maybe he just likes me as a friend. Am I a coward? Am I scared by B’s words? It’s really weird.
On the other hand, C is exactly that kind of Aussie who wants to hit on Asian girls. (Alright, I have to admit that I still believe oz is different or kinda special for the time being, lol.) C is a regular customer at work. I have to say I’ve been so sick of his crap, how many houses he has got, how many cars he bought, blah, blah…I normally don’t give this kind of person a shit. I talk to u because I want to learn English. If you want to show off, if you are a poser, pls go ahead, none of my business. What makes me unbearable is that he actually targeted on me. How dare he is!! “Little He, with me soon yummy dinner 100% off, warm car as well, ps I hope u will”. What could I say? What could I say! I would probably, but at least, yummy breakfast and lunch should be included!!!
Adult world is interesting and dodgy. I would become hilarious and ugly.
