Happy Birthday
Different friends would remember my birthday in a different year. Thank you all, whether you keeping my birthday in your calendars, or you starting being forgetful since some year. As for me, it seems that I become more and more reluctant to celebrate my birthday. No one wants to get old, do we? And I do need to apologize to my friends about forgetting their birthdays year by year.
I have to say, this birthday easily beat the past ones. I was shocked by what oz has prepared and especially the time and thoughts involved. I joked that I must have been the kindest person in my previous life, so that I could get to meet him in my current life. I am religiousless though.
During the past six months, I kept two journals, which hadn’t been posted here, when I felt disappointed at some point. Of course, I didn’t let oz know, and more importantly, I didn’t want those stuffs to reinforce or jeopardize anything. I knew for the most of time it was just my anxiety. However, I realize it’s always happening again and again, I am too concerned about what would happen and what has happened rather than what has been happening. Maybe I am born suspicious, or maybe I am lacking in a sense of security, that’s why I am always afraid of this or that, which might happen in particular. Luckily, oz seems to be assisting me to rebuild my confidence unconsciously. I could admit that I am happy much more easily, and I never feel this strongly I want to make another person happy.
Melbourne had hailstone that day, which was very rare plus coincidently on my birthday. I said to oz, I had experienced everything in one day, and bad weather would give place to a good one tomorrow. I do believe, no matter what would happen, it’s never gonna regret.
Keyboard From oz
